Found

I have made some discoveries.

My capris and sunglasses have been found. In addition, the glasses I wear daily that have been lost for 8 days have been found. I just admitted I lost them yesterday. Couldn't handle the idea of silent judgement about them being lost. I also received my brand new ATM card yesterday in the mail, to replace the one I lost months ago. I still can't find my ring anywhere, and I think I draw more sadness from that loss then any of the other things my scatter brained mind can't keep tabs on.

Things are otherwise going well. I am at Nelson Street today, and the drama from the Robbery from 10 days ago continues as Clients ask periodically about how everyone is doing, and whether the culprit has been found yet. Life has been really busy in recent weeks, it seems as though once I decided to "dig in" my calender flew off the handle a little bit. I am helping Jen with her wedding next week, feeling the stress and JOY in that process. Theresa has signed a lease for a new place to live in the downtown area, so we are enjoying the last weeks of being roommates. I am thrilled for her transition, as I continue to have peace about her embarking a new ministry opportunity in town. I have the house floor and decorative changes planned out in my mind, and I'm excited about how the Lord will bless Theresa in her new place, and me in my solo living. I can't wait. It's amazing how despite the sadness of change, how the possibilities open up and lead to joy. My dad continues to transition into Lexington, and I'm thankful that my friends have loved him well.

I have found some semblance of a normal life in recent days. "Momma D", Joel's mother has left to return home this morning. We all had a little bit of anxiety having a house guest for what was going to be two weeks... its the middle of summer, we have two dogs, and three of us fill the house with our schedules and personalities. The blessings each of us received during her time while at the B&B 34 White Oak Lane, will continue. Love her. Loved the conversations we were able to have with her, and the way she loved us each well. Having just spent 10 days with her, I can see where Joel gets a lot of the great qualities he has. I am sad thinking about how she won't be hanging out at the house tonight- offering much of her heart in advice and perspective. This morning she left a thank you gift and note, and as I read it and its offering to visit in Ohio, I thought "I want to do that!!". It was a real special time for me at the house.

The river has turned into my home away from home, and has been placed in my heart among other special spots like 'my bench' at the pier, a particular favorite beach, coffee shop, and restaurant. I have said many prayers for a place I can go, think, write, dream, and just be for little nuggets of time that would be within 15 minutes of my house that would be of as much significance as beloved spots I have traveled to this past year. Last week was one that I found time in nearly every day to just spend a little bit of time on the rivers edge and enjoying the view. On Saturday, Mandy and I found a new favorite spot to swim, play, read, and giggle. I can't believe that this river discovery is new to me after five years. I used to drive the long way home from camp every so often just to have the windows and sun roof open and the wind blow through the car. I have sat at the pull off area every now and again, but never to the extent of the past few weeks.

My prayers are being answered. I can see the resolution, I can sense the changes in my heart. More important then the schedule I am trying to keep up with, I have a place to rest mind on the rivers edge, which is one of the greatest blessings of this summer. I am struggling with not sleeping well, and feeling restless through the night. I know that its just a reflection of what I continue to over analyze during the day, I wish to be able to release the manic and controlling thoughts in the evening hours, but perhaps that will come. One thing at a time.

I have found more then just random items that I couldn't keep track of. I am thankful. I am content. What a thought. Despite the desires of my heart, and dreams in my soul... I completely understand that this moment is where I am, I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, and that my God is with me- drawing me closer with every breathe I submit myself to His purpose.