List of Ten

I stole this from a blog I was reading. I loved it. It's written in the learning and grieving process. I loved the entire list, and so I stole it.

I wish I could take credit. ;)

"1. I'm not meant to understand God

2. It's okay to ask hard questions and not get immediate answers

3. It's okay to not be okay

4. Jesus has to be real, because everything in my body was screaming that I didn't want to be with him anymore, but my heart refused to stop searching for him. It made no sense. I didn't want anything to do with God for while, yet my heart was still looking for Christ. If I can't tell myself that I don't ever want something again yet something in me still wants it, then there is some deeper side of life that has to exist.

5. Verses such as "for I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you" are NOT comforting in situations such as these.

6. Being joyful and being happy are two VERY different things

7. Faith is supposed to be very active. Its not all just about feelings and how to deal with things in our hearts. Its about going out and changing the world with our actions.

8. God doesn't promise our physical safety, he simply promises himself in all that he is.

9. I'm learning that trusting God means something very different than what I thought it meant. Once I figure out what it means, I'll let you know.

10. In the midst of all of this, God is still good. He is still trustworthy. He is in control. He is everything that he says he is. "