He left to hang out with some guys that he brought with him, and I spent some time talking and hanging out in the kitchen. An hour or so later... well two hours later I got into my car to finish the errands of the day and to head back to the house. When I got home I put groceries away and worked a little more on laundry, vacuuming, and general things. Nothing glitzy or glamorous. The iPod was blaring, the windows were all open, I put the Bistro lights on outside and it just felt good to be home. I have the house to myself for a few more weeks before Melanie and Sadie move in. I'm excited about having a new roommate, and puppy in the house, there is no hesitation. From the very moment Melanie told me she was offered a job, I enthusiastically replied "you are moving in!!". That time is almost here, and while I am excited, I am also enjoying the little bit of time I have left without the consideration of messy dishes, stereo volume, or coordinating a house social calender.
I began this school season with Mandy and Theresa both moving out, and I adjusted to what that meant and looked like fairly easily... nothing else in my life was particularly easy this fall, but living here on my own brought comfort and I enjoyed it. The Lord has blessed me in abundance. Complete and total overwhelming abundance. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in my head with thoughts of control that lead me emotionally out of control, that I forget to simply pause and say thanks to the Savior for all that I have. My grateful heart tends to gravitate more towards things of emotion, having gotten through something difficult, a relationship on track, or in anticipating the perfect plans he has for my future. I don't often pause and simply bask in the goodness of a home that I feel safe in. I feel protected, sheltered, comfortable, and safe in my own skin. On this night, with the rain having stopped and the house fan moving cool air through each room I am struck by the goodness of this time and experience of my life. One day in the future my home will no longer be just mine, but that of my family. I will have little people crawling at my feet begging for attention, and a spouse to attend to with tender care and affection. Home will mean something completely different and wonderful. There are moments when I have a strong desire for that future more then I'm able to appreciate the now.
This house has been a blessing to me, and to the girls that have lived here. I love them, and I love the honorary roommate we had when three became four with Matty. I love that I am almost 100% finished with my project, that I can sit here in my work room and feel at ease because the clutter and confusion of every last thing I owned is now returned to its rightful place.
In a few weeks a beloved friend and her puppy will join me here. Home will again look different, and I will be thankful for the amazing ways the Lord loves us and opens our hearts for more on this adventure. But tonight... on this night I seek not the future of next month, or the one that awaits in the wings of an unknown time... right now, right here, I love and am grateful for my place here alone, here on White Oak Lane.
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